Some days I don’t know
If I have 2 parents
Or 1
If I’m happy
If I’m numb
Some days it feels
Like warm blankets
And setting suns
Nice sofa
A place I call home
Or other days
I feel like a baby
Nowhere to go
Cos I cant run
Some days you hug me
Tell me you love me
Other days you do that and
Go
Some days you lie there
Numb and trying to forget
I see that you’re human
Not mum
Just a person
But I wish you weren’t
I wish you would wrap me up
19 but I still need love
Some days I wish he would call
Dad,
Sometimes I wish he had a name
One that didn’t make me want to throw up
I sit here
Trying to be present
5’2 standing on the earth
I see 5 things, touch 4
I can’t stop leaving this place
To go and see her
14 years old
When I felt most loved
I can’t stop leaving
To see him
In his little
Shitty flat, watching channel 4
I wish I could be here
Hear 3 things
Taste 2
But I can’t stop leaving
I don’t really like it here
I can’t stay
Girl on the train, bus
Either way I’m leaving the station
Train I didn’t pay for
Ticket I stole
Empty carriages
I couldn’t find the last 1
1 thing I needed to smell
Can never tell
If I’m broken
Or simply nothing at all